you and me make a beautiful symphony

hello hello.so today woke up at 6pm.damn wonderful!!! It only felt like 2pm to me.seriously.so azam called.he wanted to go out but don't know with who.so call call everyone busy or lazy cus they wanna go out tml.grrr so in the end we decided to stay at my place and get a few drinks.so went down bought 6 cans of baron and 2 can of something else.apparently i cant remember.so yea.went home slack talked nonsence and stuff.still have 2 cans of beer and i feel sleepy.grrrrr.cannot sleep till morning.well well heard myliza voice since a very long time.haahaha was shocked to hear her aslo.thanks eh kim!!!hmmm where the fuck am i going to countdown.grrrr still no clue...boring!!!!!!! well will see where i end up then.bye bye. ouh i like this pic for some reason. :D thank you erin!!!!

SICK!!!!!

well well im sick again.i guess i havent recover from last time.then now super sick!!!!cant even move or make my ass wake up from sleep.feel so lerthargic and stuff.had fever just now.woke up from sleep,so tommorow suppose to go to work and work for last day.so blah blah blah not gonna happen cus lazy plus sick so gonna get cheque through mail.sigh,have to wait longer to do my tongue.ouh i wanna peirce my tongue.cant remember if i mentioned but yea.well back to sleep

hello hello :D didnt have any pics so just used this.so today went out to town with erin mel nadya rini and azam nizam and Z the rest i forgot thier names.sorry short term memory.so slack at town.saw syaf and his bf.dah action siak syaf.he help us buy beer :D hahahah then halfway drinking police came.so what esle walk away as fast as we can.they were looking for us some more.sigh.rabak rabak.so went to somerset sat there talked talked.try to figure things out.blah blah blah.then headed to buy ciggy with nizam.then something was telling me i should meet someone.really it was to hard to even resist.every single thing i did show me sign that i should go but i just didnt listen to what it was trying to tell me.so in the end headed home.had dinner and otp awhile.hahaha well after everything im still speechless.all the 3 options that we left just doesnt seem to suite with one's heart.sigh now im left with things in my mind and a qeustion in my head.which is what should i do???hmmm well well you love getting yourself in this nick u find away out one way or another but the thing is i dont want out.so how?ideas?hmmmm none at all.ouh well will see.will update soon.yay!!! got plans for new year!!!!!!!

knew things would be like this when u said those words

hello hello :D so thurdays was christmas eve.had to go aunt's place for dinner.i was late!!!!! I didnt have time to straighten my hair -.- best!!! so went there had dinner then one of my aunt had canon DXLR gaaaaaahhhhhh.wanted to camwhore but my hair was really too curly so didnt in the end. ): i want to get one myself!!!!!! but to expensive uh.nvm try to take from mom :P so friday woke up at 3 plus went out to town at 7 plus.walked around for awhile.it was jam pack i tell u.was so fucking pissed with those ppl cus they all were walking as though they injured thier leg.grrrrr so walked around ion for awhile look at stuff blah blah blah meet faizal.wanted to go drinking actually but was so lazy to spend money.syg duit siol so just went home in the end.i feel like going to another party.grrrrr monday start work back. dont feel like working there anymore.doesnt interest me as it used too last year.see how it goes.new year is coming and i have no plans!!!!! first time takde plan.hahahaha -.- this year feel like celebrating with someone special.i dont know why.maybe cus i never done it before :D hmmmm well it is up to me to decided will see how it goes when the day comes.im so not going to downtown this year.no fucking way!!!!! hahahahahah will update soon byee byee.time for me to be a vampire again :D

hello hello.hmmm so lets see.since monday i didnt go out at all.except for tuesday only.looks like no more work from that company already.hmmm.so tuesday.last minute when out with mom and had dinner near bukit timah there.then straight after i ate my food finish.i rushed off to jurong east cus i was late to meet kimmy.so bused there and blah blah blah.meet her then started raining -.- so went to mac.sat down talk and stuff then ate fries at the same time and the best part i wanted to go home by bus then i lost track of time.always like that.grrrr but nvm all worth it.so walked from mac back to her place send her off and i was raining heavier.i was like fuck!!!!!have to get wet!!!! so ran to the closes bus stop and cabed home.dad was still awake.he wanted to pic me up but i was like still got last bus.check check different story. :P so this 2 days sat at home did nothing much.hmmm still waiting for a call from boss.i wanna peirce my tongue.hahah if it doesnt look nice then i just close it.been feeling really wierd this past few days.ouh well what to do.i always end up in this kind of situations.always.like its a curse gitu.wont be updating that often already.cus dont feel like going out this week.miss staying at home.ouh and im home alone in the morning till late at night sometimes :D yay!!!! get to smoke anywhere i want :D

I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

hello hello all.so this was on sunday.st james party couldn't post about it cus didnt have pictures yet and was lazy too at the same time.hahhaha so meet the same people i always go with.tien onn,azam,nizam,jeff,ad,heerah,farah,then have new people in the group.haiqal if i spell wrongly sorry eh and adam.hahah.long time never see adam.so meet everyone at vivo got tickets from jeff.blah blah blah beer beer beer.blah blah blah then got in to the club and dancefloor only open at 11.30pm and we went in around 11.10pm.so more blah blah and then party started.hahah had lots of fun laughing cus we were like once one person sit its like pull them back in.i swear to god i feel damn sad for this girl.she went up to the stage and she fell in between the stage and steps.she had a super deep cut at her shin.i couldn't actually look at the wound for more then 4 seconds.no one help her up.everone was looking but no one did anything.so so i just went up and pulled her up and brought her back down to the chairs.then medic came and stuff and the best part we ask '' are u okay anot?''she can reply '' ya okay still can dance''amazing -.- so party ended at 3 am then after that headed to tiong to slack at mr teh tarik.then reach there around 5.headed home at 5.40am and reached home by 6am.trust me u dont want to know how i went back home.kk will update more soon bye bye

Blow by blow, i didn't see it coming
blow by blow, sucker punch
rushes in, here to stay
rushes in, you are here to stay
what rushes into my heart and my skull
i can't control, think about it
feel it in my bones
what rushes into my heart and my skull
i can't control

I feel you in my bones
you're knocking at my windows
you're slowly lettin me go
and i know this feeling oh, so
this feeling in my bones

left hook, I didn't see it comin
left hook, you've got dead aim
rushes out, run away
rushes out, you always run away
what rushes into my heart and my skull
i can't control, think about it
feel it in my bones
what rushes into my heart and my skull
i can't control

i feel you in my bones
you're knocking at my windows
you're slowly letting me go
and i know this feeling oh, so
this feeling in my bones

i feel it in my bones
and then my skull feels pressure
i feel it in my bones
i feel it in my skull

i feel you in my bones
you're knocking at my windows
you're slowly letting me go
and i know this feeling oh so
this feeling in my bones

I take a breath, take a breath
with me blow by blow
take a break, take a break from you
you are here to stay
i take my heart out of my chest
i just don't need it anymore
I take my head out of the game
i just don't need it anymore

i feel you in my bones
you're knocking at my windows
you're slowly letting me go
and i know this feeling oh so
this feeling in my bones

hello hello :D today is monday.yesterday was st james.had fun till the last part.the situation just got the better of me.will update on st james when i have the pics.pics are currently with farah heerah and ad.so took off today cus got home at 6am and dad found out i came back late.kene fuck boy.sigh.called boss and said i was sick ^.^ hahaha.too tired uh to go to work seriously.take care all.enjoy your life while its still happy and care free.will update soon.

hello hello. :D so yesterday was just a random day.woke up around 4 plus.left house at 7 plus and meet azam to go to bugis to meet Z and friends so sat around then i wanted to meet my cousin shukri so called him up and meet him.sat down catch up on stuff talked about personal stuff here and there and how it all didnt make any sense to us.we ended laughing instead.been a long time since i saw him.so after that headed to 7-11 buy ciggy then bused home with azam.reached home couldnt sleep cus something was on my mind and was trying to solve it.i think its pretty clear cut no matter how u try to put it.sigh.will see how it goes.anyway its time to chase the real thing.people who been through what i have gone throught should know what this means.so today plan cock up.tien onn said to meet early and yet called him earlier on he never answered.looks like going late i guess.tml suppose to work but i have no clue if my body and mind is fit to go after the party.hmmm ouh well by my laziness i probably take my last off day.will see.hope this time round there will be a camera cus i wanna take pictures. :D will update soon take care bye bye.

What rushes into my heart and my skull
I cant control.think about it
I feel it in my bones
Your'e knocking on my window
Your'e slowly letting me go
I know this feeling oh-so

This feeling in my bones

hello hello all. (: so lets see I'm still waiting for someone to past me pics so i can update about Wednesday.grrrr nvm she's busy.so Thursday didn't go out then Friday went out with azam to accompany him follow tinah mira to take nuri's result for N lvl.She got 13 points.ceh bagos nah.so after that went to mac sat there and ate then meet nana for awhile since im already there.so yea.sat at the usual spot where we always sit if we at sengkang.so catch up with everybody.camwhore like idiot.i only like to camwhore with those dxlr camera's.favorite uh.so we were bored and someone suggested to play catching in the mall.so in the end we did.Yes i know like small kids but it was fun okay.its been a long time since we did this kind of stupid things.everyone was looking at us and i swear my hair that day,i look super Cine habis.hahha i have no clue why.so after that me and azam headed to douby ghout go meet nizam and iqa so walked around for awhile then headed back to thier house to meet syahin cus they wanted to stay my place.came home did some stuff and feel asleep.idk why but i felt so damn tired yesterday.hmmm today is wavehouse?dont feel like going plus no money.st james uh better!!!!!!tomorrow then i go :D hmmm suppose to go out today but dont know which plan to go.hmmm..will update soon.wanna go get ready now.bye bye all.

so today is wednesday morning.where to start.tuesday woke up in the afternoon and was still sick so yea.my boss texted me and ask me how i was doing.was suppose to go to work today but she gave me the whole week off. -.- i wanna work la fuck!!!monday then i wanna take off day.so went out with nizam to meet syahin iea azam and one of his friend.cant remember the name.walked around marina till 8 plus.the rest of the story i will update later when i have pics and when i know what im suppose to say.im so frustrated with myself now.i cant help but not do stupid things.sigh.anyone ever get that feeling after u did something or didnt do something u feel like taking it back or doing it in the end but u know it was too late?tsk tsk so fussy about things.grrrrrrr

hello all.so i didnt go out today.i wonder at times....hmmmm so slack at home had dinner around 9 plus with nizam came home did nothing much except for computer and stuff.i took an off day from work today since im still sick so yea.i dont feel like working anymore.that job just doesnt intrest me even thought i work for so little hours i just dont see myself in that kind of line anymore.i thought i be perfect for it but i was wrong.hahahah.see how it goes maybe just work for a month.its 6am and i cant sleep...something is in my mind right now.something about my past but won't let it affect me.why do i feel so connected to this particular person?why does my heart keep skipping a beat whenever i see her msges or calls?why do i see her crossing my mind everytime i take a moment to breath?hmmmmmm still a mystery for me!hahahaha nick nick dont get to far ahead of yourself.i swear i dont feel like doing anything this week.i feel like recoopertating at home.i miss waking up late and stuff.hmmmm idk what to do already.just so bored with life.ouh step sis dreamnt i died!!!!!!there is 2 side of what im feeling towards that,how funny that is and if it will happen anytime soon?hmmm had a dream like that too recently.im a gemeni some more!!!best!!!!!hahaha she woke up and screamed when she saw me die.half of me is like awwwwwww and the other half of me want to know how i died.well wont be going into work till i get better which is idk when so yea.will update soon :D

why dont you feel me?
im so in need

is it a wonder i resist from you

i was the one who fell in this game

then you took me away from you :D

those small words are lyrics to a song btw.i just love the meaning to it. send chills down my spine

hello all sorry no pics cus never go out since wednesday so yea unless u all want to see my sick face then okay.thursday and friday was work then friday night went out to town with nizam and iqa and meet some of nizam friends and they knew who i was but i didnt know them which was super awkward cus they were like''nick!!!''then i was ermm ''eh you hello''paiseh sak!! someone said i was skinnier in real life then in pictures -.- yes yes i know im fuking skinny.dont have to tell me.ouh and as i was walking at town there was this family walking and then there was this small kid about 3-4 years old wandering away from them and was very near to the road so i just hold her and move the kid body back to the family.so i was infront and nizam was just behind me at that point of time.so after i did that i swore i heard someone said ''handsome''so i was like eh nizam did u hear what i heard??then he was like this girl with the family said''wah best eh dapat hold abang handsome punye tangan!! to the kid i holded just now.i was like dont fucking lie la!!!!in the first place i was wearing super slack cus i was from work and my hair was super oily but nizam said it was true so yea.only god knows.okay moving on saturday was stay at home day cus why?????fucking sick!!!!!sigh and still sick now.boring much?suppose to go out today but idk if i can or not.i do wanna go but i cant even breathe properly nor stop my nose from being block.sigh.if this carry on how the hell am i going to work tml???i cant even stand properly -.- hahahahah well slept super early yesterday night which isnt the normal me.just woke up and now the only thing in my mind is how am i suppose to get my ass well in less then 3-4 hours time.hmmmmm i miss someone.i know i do but i dont know who.hahahaha.i find songs now not as nice and relex as last time.i miss all the old songs we used to listen too.i gonna start listening to old songs from now on.the new songs just doesnt have any meaning anymore which is just sad in so many ways.okay i need to go and rest somemore!!!! D;

hello hello :D okay erm okay the photo up there is kimmy so yea dont ask.had no pics from yesterday so hahaha. so lets see what happened on tuesday.hmmm lets see morning went to work then during the afternoon i had a feeling that i had to go butter factory so yea call2 people make sure they all going and stuff so yea.had to work till 5.30 cus asked for off day then next day so yea.rushed home and i was late!!so bathed drinked a can of beer and do my hair in less than 30 mins.so meet jeff and nizam and tien onn at tiong then headed to city hall.meet azra take money from here then joined her group and started walking towards butter factory and the sad part was we had no cameraman/women no pics at all except at tien onn's phone.syahin and iea and azam came at 1 plus so more of us equals to more fun :D so after the party went to marina 7-11 then stuff happend lazy to elborate.so started walking towards town to pass the time while waiting for first bus to start.laughed alot cus we were talking alot of nonsense along the way.hahah so took 14 feel asleep awhile and bought ciggy before hit home.slept at 7am woke up at 11 plus was suppose to go out with kimmy for breakfast but both woke up late.hahha so slept again till 4 plus and was late to meet her again.nicky nicky such a pig sigh.so meet kimmy had lunch then she had to go off for work then erin ask to meet then nizam didnt want to travel so was left alone to go nvm lucky i was at jurong nearby je.so meet her talk blah blah blah then hit home ate and now wanting to sleep cus need to work tml. :D will update when i have pics and stuff.should be busy with work during weekdays.hmmm wonder what im gonna do on saturday???movie??drinking??party again???late nights???hmmm see how yea
bye bye vampires!!!!!

hello hello those who read my blog yesterday im sorry cus im gonna redo it.hahaha so let see this is what happened on saturday woke up around 2 plus in the afternoon then went out and 7 plus cus going to meet tien onn at bugis at 8.i reached there he not there yet.he was 20 minutes late.grrrr so followed him to take his pay and buy his ipod which cost him $230 so standard he happy uh!!!nabei nvm wait for my pay come.so proceeded to jurong east to meet azam nizam all but side track for awhile cus tien onn had to put something at his work place.so stop by to surprise kimmy!!! and she thought that wasnt me.grrrrr selenger habis.so took bus after that headed to pandan gardens and then iea and is joined us.so yea went somewhere to start drinking :D as u can see from the photos that my eyes is closed and stuff.i was drunk and tired at the same time so yea.what to do.so couldnt take it anymore and feel asleep on the ground and it was freezing cold.i woke up a few times cus my legs were shaking.so woke up around 5 plus and took 51 home but stop at queensway for breakfast.so reached home at 7.15 am and woke up at 11 am -.- so finally went out with mom and the other family.went to esplanade to watch some play and then followed azra go buy stuff for butter factory.so from city hall ended up at town -.- like i not tired like that.so saw natasha!!!!hahahahha dont want to talk about it.later story everyone know.so was suppose to took bus home but ended up going all the way to jurong again.hahahha go meet kimmy! :D so we wanted to grab dinner and stuff then couldnt decided so i just said go somewhere that i have never been for a long time.so ended up at spize which is near great world city.had nasi pattaya.its been a long time since i ate that.she had the same thing also cus she didnt know what was nice.so after we ate went somewhere peaceful.sat there talked alot listen to songs sing for no reason hahahah and siti stop it eh.hahahah i know u happy yesterday :p so around 1 plus started walking again then ended up downstairs my place and sat there and she wanted to draw but had no paper so my arm became A4 paper.best!!! hahahah so she wanted to go home around 3 plus cus she wanted me to rest cus i had work in the morning so sent her off and went home and sleep.so work was torture due to lack of sleep havent eaten and the best part i cant go butter factory cus dad came back from overseas already.sigh nvm 20th still have.those who are going have fun yea. :D hmmm feel like going out again today hmm see how uh.bye bye vampires!!

hello hello :D so yesterday went to sentosa.when we went there it was raining pffft and someone said it wasnt going to rain.so played soccer in the rain and stuff.then waited for erin to come with forks so i can eat as i was super hungry but when she came she didnt bring so must wait again for here to go 7-11 to get chopstick.so when she arrived straight away i became a machine sitting there eating like i never ate for days like that those other ppl that were eating with me didnt know how to eat with chopstick so in my heart i was like hahahah im gonna eat more then u :P so took pictures and stuff then went to vivo and teman iqah and friends go burger king and stuff and i was super tired la.grrrrr.so slept at 10pm.hahahah early nicky? so when i woke up my left leg is super pain.i swear its like i disclocated my leg gitu.i cant even press on it ): so just stayed home for today cus its so hard to walk. so lets see what else eh??hmmmmm ouh well saturday party tak jadi dont want to explain. too angry to but still going out tml with tien onn probably overnight and stuff so people who know me well enough should know what that means :D gahhhh im gonna start work on monday ): like lazy to start only sigh.hmmmm i wonder how im gonna last through next week.well will update soon.ouh and i apologize for my hair in the photos and my face.got wet and so yea oily and stuff.

hello hello.okay sorry no pics from yesterday.so yea.erm lets see yesterday went out to town and meet haziqah and one of her friend with nizam so sat at mc cafe for awhile and then they had to go home.so was suppose to meet someone after that but couldnt make it so yea its okay. :D so bused home and ate dinner and fell asleep at 9 plus and woke up around 2 plus.so wake up and chat2 then someone decided to take pitures when webcaming -.- dah la muke tngh ngtok grrrr takpe2 i will get u back one day.so dad just left for holiday and im alone.yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! party!!!!!!!!!he gave me $100 for the week gonna blow it all on saturday :D so currently havent slept and now suppose to get ready to go sentosa and have to reach there at 1.standard ar nick everytime late.tsk2 will update later when i get back home.must get ready now!!!!!here are the pic from my webcam -.- yes i know i look stupid

hello hello (: So this was supposed to be tuesday post but i was too fucking tired to actually do it yesterday so yea.so on tuesday slept for 2 hours only which was from 6am to 8am so then bath changed and got ready to go for job interview.actually i didnt want the job cus it was too far away from home but yea i got it.working ours is only 6 hours :D yay!!!!.pay was better then my last admin job so cant complain that much.starting next monday so have to get my body clock to normal mode again if not when start work mampos.so came home then nizam meet me at my place then headed off to city hall to meet atiqah and one of her friends.then in the end erin couldnt make it cus of some problems and iqah got forced to come.hahahaha.so hang out at city hall,had 2 carmel frappacino for free :D favourite!!!!! then sat down behind marina and me and nizam were bored so started to do stupid things to entertain all of them.hahaha i hate zouk so much right now cus of bloodybeet roots!!!!!!!!!arghhhhhhhhh i wanna go!!!!!!!!!!!!! pls pls pls? so around 5 plus siti called and asked where we were and stuff so decided to meet her after that.so walked to town from city hall.i swear my legs were about to break.i was seriously too tired yesterday but nvm so meet siti and okasha and they wanted to go to starbucks.so sat there talk2 had a few power nap cus eyes couldnt take it anymore.actually could have taken alot more pictures but i was really not in the mood as i was tired and my face like stone so cannot....so headed to taka after that and pass azam somethings and then headed home.as soon as i hit my bed i feel asleep.hahahah such a pig!!!!!well suppose to go out today but not so sure.hmmmm.grrrrrrrrr i need to save money for saturday and i only have $22 now.how like that?must buy things on saturday seh.grrrr nvm i find a way or another.well will update more soon take care. :D

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	Yeah yeah, blah. Story of my life? Yeah so? :D	profile nicholas 17,im mixed half chinese half malay.my believes and thinking may seem unsensible at times but thats what makes me different. i dont entertain people who hate me.all of you can just screw off. spam all u like i wouldnt give a damn about it. living life day by day,step by step. takes awhile to get to know me but its up to you to decided if its worth the trouble. favourite music=everything because i dont have a special genre. tell me your blog and i'll link asap.i'll try to make it alphabetical order so its easier (:	day before NYE 158706989375358494 date: Dec 31, 2009 time: 1:43 AM comments: 0 hello hello.so today woke up at 6pm.damn wonderful!!! It only felt like 2pm to me.seriously.so azam called.he wanted to go out but don't know with who.so call call everyone busy or lazy cus they wanna go out tml.grrr so in the end we decided to stay at my place and get a few drinks.so went down bought 6 cans of baron and 2 can of something else.apparently i cant remember.so yea.went home slack talked nonsence and stuff.still have 2 cans of beer and i feel sleepy.grrrrr.cannot sleep till morning.well well heard myliza voice since a very long time.haahaha was shocked to hear her aslo.thanks eh kim!!!hmmm where the fuck am i going to countdown.grrrr still no clue...boring!!!!!!! well will see where i end up then.bye bye. ouh i like this pic for some reason. :D thank you erin!!!! comment? sick 8640820270865363762 date: Dec 28, 2009 time: 2:56 AM comments: 0 SICK!!!!! well well im sick again.i guess i havent recover from last time.then now super sick!!!!cant even move or make my ass wake up from sleep.feel so lerthargic and stuff.had fever just now.woke up from sleep,so tommorow suppose to go to work and work for last day.so blah blah blah not gonna happen cus lazy plus sick so gonna get cheque through mail.sigh,have to wait longer to do my tongue.ouh i wanna peirce my tongue.cant remember if i mentioned but yea.well back to sleep comment? Wonderfuckingful 7095220520491169632 date: Dec 27, 2009 time: 12:39 AM comments: 0 hello hello :D didnt have any pics so just used this.so today went out to town with erin mel nadya rini and azam nizam and Z the rest i forgot thier names.sorry short term memory.so slack at town.saw syaf and his bf.dah action siak syaf.he help us buy beer :D hahahah then halfway drinking police came.so what esle walk away as fast as we can.they were looking for us some more.sigh.rabak rabak.so went to somerset sat there talked talked.try to figure things out.blah blah blah.then headed to buy ciggy with nizam.then something was telling me i should meet someone.really it was to hard to even resist.every single thing i did show me sign that i should go but i just didnt listen to what it was trying to tell me.so in the end headed home.had dinner and otp awhile.hahaha well after everything im still speechless.all the 3 options that we left just doesnt seem to suite with one's heart.sigh now im left with things in my mind and a qeustion in my head.which is what should i do???hmmm well well you love getting yourself in this nick u find away out one way or another but the thing is i dont want out.so how?ideas?hmmmm none at all.ouh well will see.will update soon.yay!!! got plans for new year!!!!!!! knew things would be like this when u said those words comment? boredness of this week 6649126302641861125 date: Dec 26, 2009 time: 2:14 AM comments: 0 hello hello :D so thurdays was christmas eve.had to go aunt's place for dinner.i was late!!!!! I didnt have time to straighten my hair -.- best!!! so went there had dinner then one of my aunt had canon DXLR gaaaaaahhhhhh.wanted to camwhore but my hair was really too curly so didnt in the end. ): i want to get one myself!!!!!! but to expensive uh.nvm try to take from mom :P so friday woke up at 3 plus went out to town at 7 plus.walked around for awhile.it was jam pack i tell u.was so fucking pissed with those ppl cus they all were walking as though they injured thier leg.grrrrr so walked around ion for awhile look at stuff blah blah blah meet faizal.wanted to go drinking actually but was so lazy to spend money.syg duit siol so just went home in the end.i feel like going to another party.grrrrr monday start work back. dont feel like working there anymore.doesnt interest me as it used too last year.see how it goes.new year is coming and i have no plans!!!!! first time takde plan.hahahaha -.- this year feel like celebrating with someone special.i dont know why.maybe cus i never done it before :D hmmmm well it is up to me to decided will see how it goes when the day comes.im so not going to downtown this year.no fucking way!!!!! hahahahahah will update soon byee byee.time for me to be a vampire again :D comment? The snows falling down 9196849486148615835 date: Dec 24, 2009 time: 2:16 AM comments: 0 hello hello.hmmm so lets see.since monday i didnt go out at all.except for tuesday only.looks like no more work from that company already.hmmm.so tuesday.last minute when out with mom and had dinner near bukit timah there.then straight after i ate my food finish.i rushed off to jurong east cus i was late to meet kimmy.so bused there and blah blah blah.meet her then started raining -.- so went to mac.sat down talk and stuff then ate fries at the same time and the best part i wanted to go home by bus then i lost track of time.always like that.grrrr but nvm all worth it.so walked from mac back to her place send her off and i was raining heavier.i was like fuck!!!!!have to get wet!!!! so ran to the closes bus stop and cabed home.dad was still awake.he wanted to pic me up but i was like still got last bus.check check different story. :P so this 2 days sat at home did nothing much.hmmm still waiting for a call from boss.i wanna peirce my tongue.hahah if it doesnt look nice then i just close it.been feeling really wierd this past few days.ouh well what to do.i always end up in this kind of situations.always.like its a curse gitu.wont be updating that often already.cus dont feel like going out this week.miss staying at home.ouh and im home alone in the morning till late at night sometimes :D yay!!!! get to smoke anywhere i want :D I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart comment? good/bad memories in 3 minutes 7124879532095959371 date: time: 1:56 AM comments: 0 hello hello all.so this was on sunday.st james party couldn't post about it cus didnt have pictures yet and was lazy too at the same time.hahhaha so meet the same people i always go with.tien onn,azam,nizam,jeff,ad,heerah,farah,then have new people in the group.haiqal if i spell wrongly sorry eh and adam.hahah.long time never see adam.so meet everyone at vivo got tickets from jeff.blah blah blah beer beer beer.blah blah blah then got in to the club and dancefloor only open at 11.30pm and we went in around 11.10pm.so more blah blah and then party started.hahah had lots of fun laughing cus we were like once one person sit its like pull them back in.i swear to god i feel damn sad for this girl.she went up to the stage and she fell in between the stage and steps.she had a super deep cut at her shin.i couldn't actually look at the wound for more then 4 seconds.no one help her up.everone was looking but no one did anything.so so i just went up and pulled her up and brought her back down to the chairs.then medic came and stuff and the best part we ask '' are u okay anot?''she can reply '' ya okay still can dance''amazing -.- so party ended at 3 am then after that headed to tiong to slack at mr teh tarik.then reach there around 5.headed home at 5.40am and reached home by 6am.trust me u dont want to know how i went back home.kk will update more soon bye bye comment? where do we go? 5410393672188036959 date: Dec 22, 2009 time: 1:07 AM comments: 0 Blow by blow, i didn't see it coming blow by blow, sucker punch rushes in, here to stay rushes in, you are here to stay what rushes into my heart and my skull i can't control, think about it feel it in my bones what rushes into my heart and my skull i can't control I feel you in my bones you're knocking at my windows you're slowly lettin me go and i know this feeling oh, so this feeling in my bones left hook, I didn't see it comin left hook, you've got dead aim rushes out, run away rushes out, you always run away what rushes into my heart and my skull i can't control, think about it feel it in my bones what rushes into my heart and my skull i can't control i feel you in my bones you're knocking at my windows you're slowly letting me go and i know this feeling oh, so this feeling in my bones i feel it in my bones and then my skull feels pressure i feel it in my bones i feel it in my skull i feel you in my bones you're knocking at my windows you're slowly letting me go and i know this feeling oh so this feeling in my bones I take a breath, take a breath with me blow by blow take a break, take a break from you you are here to stay i take my heart out of my chest i just don't need it anymore I take my head out of the game i just don't need it anymore i feel you in my bones you're knocking at my windows you're slowly letting me go and i know this feeling oh so this feeling in my bones comment? speechless 4816325062950686105 date: Dec 21, 2009 time: 6:04 PM comments: 0 hello hello :D today is monday.yesterday was st james.had fun till the last part.the situation just got the better of me.will update on st james when i have the pics.pics are currently with farah heerah and ad.so took off today cus got home at 6am and dad found out i came back late.kene fuck boy.sigh.called boss and said i was sick ^.^ hahaha.too tired uh to go to work seriously.take care all.enjoy your life while its still happy and care free.will update soon. comment? didnt see it coming. 5083336841095522476 date: Dec 20, 2009 time: 4:10 PM comments: 0 hello hello. :D so yesterday was just a random day.woke up around 4 plus.left house at 7 plus and meet azam to go to bugis to meet Z and friends so sat around then i wanted to meet my cousin shukri so called him up and meet him.sat down catch up on stuff talked about personal stuff here and there and how it all didnt make any sense to us.we ended laughing instead.been a long time since i saw him.so after that headed to 7-11 buy ciggy then bused home with azam.reached home couldnt sleep cus something was on my mind and was trying to solve it.i think its pretty clear cut no matter how u try to put it.sigh.will see how it goes.anyway its time to chase the real thing.people who been through what i have gone throught should know what this means.so today plan cock up.tien onn said to meet early and yet called him earlier on he never answered.looks like going late i guess.tml suppose to work but i have no clue if my body and mind is fit to go after the party.hmmm ouh well by my laziness i probably take my last off day.will see.hope this time round there will be a camera cus i wanna take pictures. :D will update soon take care bye bye. What rushes into my heart and my skull I cant control.think about it I feel it in my bones Your'e knocking on my window Your'e slowly letting me go I know this feeling oh-so This feeling in my bones comment? super cine habis 429223915591174812 date: Dec 19, 2009 time: 5:06 PM comments: 0 hello hello all. (: so lets see I'm still waiting for someone to past me pics so i can update about Wednesday.grrrr nvm she's busy.so Thursday didn't go out then Friday went out with azam to accompany him follow tinah mira to take nuri's result for N lvl.She got 13 points.ceh bagos nah.so after that went to mac sat there and ate then meet nana for awhile since im already there.so yea.sat at the usual spot where we always sit if we at sengkang.so catch up with everybody.camwhore like idiot.i only like to camwhore with those dxlr camera's.favorite uh.so we were bored and someone suggested to play catching in the mall.so in the end we did.Yes i know like small kids but it was fun okay.its been a long time since we did this kind of stupid things.everyone was looking at us and i swear my hair that day,i look super Cine habis.hahha i have no clue why.so after that me and azam headed to douby ghout go meet nizam and iqa so walked around for awhile then headed back to thier house to meet syahin cus they wanted to stay my place.came home did some stuff and feel asleep.idk why but i felt so damn tired yesterday.hmmm today is wavehouse?dont feel like going plus no money.st james uh better!!!!!!tomorrow then i go :D hmmm suppose to go out today but dont know which plan to go.hmmm..will update soon.wanna go get ready now.bye bye all. comment? confused 2384064918819499946 date: Dec 16, 2009 time: 5:28 AM comments: 0 so today is wednesday morning.where to start.tuesday woke up in the afternoon and was still sick so yea.my boss texted me and ask me how i was doing.was suppose to go to work today but she gave me the whole week off. -.- i wanna work la fuck!!!monday then i wanna take off day.so went out with nizam to meet syahin iea azam and one of his friend.cant remember the name.walked around marina till 8 plus.the rest of the story i will update later when i have pics and when i know what im suppose to say.im so frustrated with myself now.i cant help but not do stupid things.sigh.anyone ever get that feeling after u did something or didnt do something u feel like taking it back or doing it in the end but u know it was too late?tsk tsk so fussy about things.grrrrrrr comment? Im fine without you now.can you disappear? 4511948491138621202 date: Dec 14, 2009 time: 6:30 AM comments: 0 hello all.so i didnt go out today.i wonder at times....hmmmm so slack at home had dinner around 9 plus with nizam came home did nothing much except for computer and stuff.i took an off day from work today since im still sick so yea.i dont feel like working anymore.that job just doesnt intrest me even thought i work for so little hours i just dont see myself in that kind of line anymore.i thought i be perfect for it but i was wrong.hahahah.see how it goes maybe just work for a month.its 6am and i cant sleep...something is in my mind right now.something about my past but won't let it affect me.why do i feel so connected to this particular person?why does my heart keep skipping a beat whenever i see her msges or calls?why do i see her crossing my mind everytime i take a moment to breath?hmmmmmm still a mystery for me!hahahaha nick nick dont get to far ahead of yourself.i swear i dont feel like doing anything this week.i feel like recoopertating at home.i miss waking up late and stuff.hmmmm idk what to do already.just so bored with life.ouh step sis dreamnt i died!!!!!!there is 2 side of what im feeling towards that,how funny that is and if it will happen anytime soon?hmmm had a dream like that too recently.im a gemeni some more!!!best!!!!!hahaha she woke up and screamed when she saw me die.half of me is like awwwwwww and the other half of me want to know how i died.well wont be going into work till i get better which is idk when so yea.will update soon :D why dont you feel me? im so in need is it a wonder i resist from you i was the one who fell in this game then you took me away from you :D those small words are lyrics to a song btw.i just love the meaning to it. send chills down my spine comment? sick D: 7188323847070244879 date: Dec 13, 2009 time: 11:38 AM comments: 0 hello all sorry no pics cus never go out since wednesday so yea unless u all want to see my sick face then okay.thursday and friday was work then friday night went out to town with nizam and iqa and meet some of nizam friends and they knew who i was but i didnt know them which was super awkward cus they were like''nick!!!''then i was ermm ''eh you hello''paiseh sak!! someone said i was skinnier in real life then in pictures -.- yes yes i know im fuking skinny.dont have to tell me.ouh and as i was walking at town there was this family walking and then there was this small kid about 3-4 years old wandering away from them and was very near to the road so i just hold her and move the kid body back to the family.so i was infront and nizam was just behind me at that point of time.so after i did that i swore i heard someone said ''handsome''so i was like eh nizam did u hear what i heard??then he was like this girl with the family said''wah best eh dapat hold abang handsome punye tangan!! to the kid i holded just now.i was like dont fucking lie la!!!!in the first place i was wearing super slack cus i was from work and my hair was super oily but nizam said it was true so yea.only god knows.okay moving on saturday was stay at home day cus why?????fucking sick!!!!!sigh and still sick now.boring much?suppose to go out today but idk if i can or not.i do wanna go but i cant even breathe properly nor stop my nose from being block.sigh.if this carry on how the hell am i going to work tml???i cant even stand properly -.- hahahahah well slept super early yesterday night which isnt the normal me.just woke up and now the only thing in my mind is how am i suppose to get my ass well in less then 3-4 hours time.hmmmmm i miss someone.i know i do but i dont know who.hahahaha.i find songs now not as nice and relex as last time.i miss all the old songs we used to listen too.i gonna start listening to old songs from now on.the new songs just doesnt have any meaning anymore which is just sad in so many ways.okay i need to go and rest somemore!!!! D; comment? so so hectic 6577115792994424159 date: Dec 9, 2009 time: 11:43 PM comments: 0 hello hello :D okay erm okay the photo up there is kimmy so yea dont ask.had no pics from yesterday so hahaha. so lets see what happened on tuesday.hmmm lets see morning went to work then during the afternoon i had a feeling that i had to go butter factory so yea call2 people make sure they all going and stuff so yea.had to work till 5.30 cus asked for off day then next day so yea.rushed home and i was late!!so bathed drinked a can of beer and do my hair in less than 30 mins.so meet jeff and nizam and tien onn at tiong then headed to city hall.meet azra take money from here then joined her group and started walking towards butter factory and the sad part was we had no cameraman/women no pics at all except at tien onn's phone.syahin and iea and azam came at 1 plus so more of us equals to more fun :D so after the party went to marina 7-11 then stuff happend lazy to elborate.so started walking towards town to pass the time while waiting for first bus to start.laughed alot cus we were talking alot of nonsense along the way.hahah so took 14 feel asleep awhile and bought ciggy before hit home.slept at 7am woke up at 11 plus was suppose to go out with kimmy for breakfast but both woke up late.hahha so slept again till 4 plus and was late to meet her again.nicky nicky such a pig sigh.so meet kimmy had lunch then she had to go off for work then erin ask to meet then nizam didnt want to travel so was left alone to go nvm lucky i was at jurong nearby je.so meet her talk blah blah blah then hit home ate and now wanting to sleep cus need to work tml. :D will update when i have pics and stuff.should be busy with work during weekdays.hmmm wonder what im gonna do on saturday???movie??drinking??party again???late nights???hmmm see how yea bye bye vampires!!!!! comment? lost in time 4206379895413674141 date: Dec 7, 2009 time: 3:45 AM comments: 0 hello hello those who read my blog yesterday im sorry cus im gonna redo it.hahaha so let see this is what happened on saturday woke up around 2 plus in the afternoon then went out and 7 plus cus going to meet tien onn at bugis at 8.i reached there he not there yet.he was 20 minutes late.grrrr so followed him to take his pay and buy his ipod which cost him $230 so standard he happy uh!!!nabei nvm wait for my pay come.so proceeded to jurong east to meet azam nizam all but side track for awhile cus tien onn had to put something at his work place.so stop by to surprise kimmy!!! and she thought that wasnt me.grrrrr selenger habis.so took bus after that headed to pandan gardens and then iea and is joined us.so yea went somewhere to start drinking :D as u can see from the photos that my eyes is closed and stuff.i was drunk and tired at the same time so yea.what to do.so couldnt take it anymore and feel asleep on the ground and it was freezing cold.i woke up a few times cus my legs were shaking.so woke up around 5 plus and took 51 home but stop at queensway for breakfast.so reached home at 7.15 am and woke up at 11 am -.- so finally went out with mom and the other family.went to esplanade to watch some play and then followed azra go buy stuff for butter factory.so from city hall ended up at town -.- like i not tired like that.so saw natasha!!!!hahahahha dont want to talk about it.later story everyone know.so was suppose to took bus home but ended up going all the way to jurong again.hahahha go meet kimmy! :D so we wanted to grab dinner and stuff then couldnt decided so i just said go somewhere that i have never been for a long time.so ended up at spize which is near great world city.had nasi pattaya.its been a long time since i ate that.she had the same thing also cus she didnt know what was nice.so after we ate went somewhere peaceful.sat there talked alot listen to songs sing for no reason hahahah and siti stop it eh.hahahah i know u happy yesterday :p so around 1 plus started walking again then ended up downstairs my place and sat there and she wanted to draw but had no paper so my arm became A4 paper.best!!! hahahah so she wanted to go home around 3 plus cus she wanted me to rest cus i had work in the morning so sent her off and went home and sleep.so work was torture due to lack of sleep havent eaten and the best part i cant go butter factory cus dad came back from overseas already.sigh nvm 20th still have.those who are going have fun yea. :D hmmm feel like going out again today hmm see how uh.bye bye vampires!! comment? boo fucking hoo 3321581624682779610 date: Dec 4, 2009 time: 9:49 PM comments: 0 hello hello :D so yesterday went to sentosa.when we went there it was raining pffft and someone said it wasnt going to rain.so played soccer in the rain and stuff.then waited for erin to come with forks so i can eat as i was super hungry but when she came she didnt bring so must wait again for here to go 7-11 to get chopstick.so when she arrived straight away i became a machine sitting there eating like i never ate for days like that those other ppl that were eating with me didnt know how to eat with chopstick so in my heart i was like hahahah im gonna eat more then u :P so took pictures and stuff then went to vivo and teman iqah and friends go burger king and stuff and i was super tired la.grrrrr.so slept at 10pm.hahahah early nicky? so when i woke up my left leg is super pain.i swear its like i disclocated my leg gitu.i cant even press on it ): so just stayed home for today cus its so hard to walk. so lets see what else eh??hmmmmm ouh well saturday party tak jadi dont want to explain. too angry to but still going out tml with tien onn probably overnight and stuff so people who know me well enough should know what that means :D gahhhh im gonna start work on monday ): like lazy to start only sigh.hmmmm i wonder how im gonna last through next week.well will update soon.ouh and i apologize for my hair in the photos and my face.got wet and so yea oily and stuff. comment? sepet habis 54548917245838427 date: Dec 3, 2009 time: 12:15 PM comments: 0 hello hello.okay sorry no pics from yesterday.so yea.erm lets see yesterday went out to town and meet haziqah and one of her friend with nizam so sat at mc cafe for awhile and then they had to go home.so was suppose to meet someone after that but couldnt make it so yea its okay. :D so bused home and ate dinner and fell asleep at 9 plus and woke up around 2 plus.so wake up and chat2 then someone decided to take pitures when webcaming -.- dah la muke tngh ngtok grrrr takpe2 i will get u back one day.so dad just left for holiday and im alone.yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! party!!!!!!!!!he gave me $100 for the week gonna blow it all on saturday :D so currently havent slept and now suppose to get ready to go sentosa and have to reach there at 1.standard ar nick everytime late.tsk2 will update later when i get back home.must get ready now!!!!!here are the pic from my webcam -.- yes i know i look stupid comment? so tired!!!! 6312648097556267286 date: Dec 2, 2009 time: 9:07 AM comments: 0 hello hello (: So this was supposed to be tuesday post but i was too fucking tired to actually do it yesterday so yea.so on tuesday slept for 2 hours only which was from 6am to 8am so then bath changed and got ready to go for job interview.actually i didnt want the job cus it was too far away from home but yea i got it.working ours is only 6 hours :D yay!!!!.pay was better then my last admin job so cant complain that much.starting next monday so have to get my body clock to normal mode again if not when start work mampos.so came home then nizam meet me at my place then headed off to city hall to meet atiqah and one of her friends.then in the end erin couldnt make it cus of some problems and iqah got forced to come.hahahaha.so hang out at city hall,had 2 carmel frappacino for free :D favourite!!!!! then sat down behind marina and me and nizam were bored so started to do stupid things to entertain all of them.hahaha i hate zouk so much right now cus of bloodybeet roots!!!!!!!!!arghhhhhhhhh i wanna go!!!!!!!!!!!!! pls pls pls? so around 5 plus siti called and asked where we were and stuff so decided to meet her after that.so walked to town from city hall.i swear my legs were about to break.i was seriously too tired yesterday but nvm so meet siti and okasha and they wanted to go to starbucks.so sat there talk2 had a few power nap cus eyes couldnt take it anymore.actually could have taken alot more pictures but i was really not in the mood as i was tired and my face like stone so cannot....so headed to taka after that and pass azam somethings and then headed home.as soon as i hit my bed i feel asleep.hahahah such a pig!!!!!well suppose to go out today but not so sure.hmmmm.grrrrrrrrr i need to save money for saturday and i only have $22 now.how like that?must buy things on saturday seh.grrrr nvm i find a way or another.well will update more soon take care. :D comment?	archives November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 May 2010 recently feel like im always alone anyways I can’t promise to fix all your problems, but I ca... sometimes action shows you how important things ar... 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