Firstly i miss my helmet hair of mine.for those who have seen my hair already,why do u keep saying it looks nicer?seriously?i prefer my old hair better,hands down.School is getting on my nerves because i still cant take my exam till i have my membership card number and its kind of irritating me because its been 3 weeks sitting at home waiting for a stupid call from school.so what have i done this past 3 weeks?NOTHING!!!!!! I swear its the same routine as last time again.things just doesn't seem as colorful as before.I have a feeling im programed wrong or something.when i want something i must get it but after a few weeks i get bored with it.is it gonna be always like this or just on occasions?I dont really need anything right now,now the only thing that i feel is what i felt a year back.just me,azam and nizam and the usual people we hang out with.nothing else.nothing seems to interest/make me happy anymore.seems to me that time turning back again,Sometimes i wish we could all dream about the future and learn our mistakes and faults and redo everything again just to make it right.

I just wanna be left alone right now,im not in a clear state of mind

Time check 7.30am.reasons why im not asleep yet is only 2 things,a heavy heart and that i just got back home.So this is what happened.slept at 3am on Sunday morning.woke up at 11am for lunch with dad side of the family and got back at 4pm,slept till 10pm and wasn't in a really good mood.it got worse and worse as each hour ticked.and it was 4am monday morning when my anger took control.words were exchanged and left home at 6am took a cab to the place.handphone was silent,called till battery was flatted,people stared blankly at me as i stood there waiting.watched the sunrise on the 14 floor and finally after an hour,i gave up.I slowly walked back to the main road.took the longest cab ride of my life and got home.Best part is i have sch in 2 hours time and that i spent my last cent on cabs and ezlink left on $2 plus,and even better news that i don't have allowence for this week because used it all last week.watch Ironman 2!!!

all these actions have thier own meaning to it but the truth is that these are a few of the tiny things that never get noticed or appreciated.

hence why i have given up.